Crazy Story #1

Once again it's been forever since I've used my blog! I have 3 crazy stories to tell since I've been back but I'm gonna brake it up just to get my post count back up. But real quick: My new laptop is sweet. And once again I've talked to no one from Herndon... whoops. :P I'll try and be more active on FB cause I'll look for any excuse to use the laptop.

Anyways, Jessica and I were in a nearby freshman dorm eating at the cafeteria. We're going down this small hallway to leave and all of a sudden we hear "someone help me!" coming from the bathrooms. So we stopped to see if it was coming from the women or mens room and then we hear "someone! please! help!" from the womens bathroom. Jessica goes in and when the coast is clear I followed. There was some girl laying on the floor holding onto her stomach barely moving and she said "please... get help". So we ran outside to the RA desk and they followed us into the bathroom. One RA is saying "Can you hear me? Put up a finger if you hear me". But there was no answer or response. They called an ambulance and told us to leave. We never saw the girl again, and I haven't seen the RA's we got to help. So I donno what the aftermath was, but I hope we saved someones life!! It was really scary though, not gonna lie. On a side note, there was another girl in the bathroom who was like "Uhh...Hello?" from a stall when the RA's asked if anyone else was in there. So that girl must have completely ignored that girls calls for help and maybe even stepped over her while she was passed out! What a bitch dude.
~Andy

#VaBeach

Hah, well so much for posting every week. It's been a lot of fun lately with all the bored game playing and I find myself thinking about all the strategies I wanna use on a bunch of them. (And my car is back!!) Dan and Kit are gone on a bike riding trip for a week so I decided to give my brain a night off and just hang out at home. Me and mom have been watching Family Feud every time we eat together and it's really addicting. But I'm not talking about the new ones, we only TiVo the old ones from the 70's with Richard Dawson. He kisses every female contestant and some are all over him sometimes! You could never do that today... but Richard is the fucking man!

Anyways... this post is about Virginia Beach and Norfolk. I think all the time about how I miss it so much. It's so different and unique compared to up here. I don't know if it's the beach, or the city, or the college or what I find cool about it. I also don't know if it's because of college or because of the city, but I really think the city is a big part of why I like going back. I definitely feel like I want to live down there after college. (The housing being a lot cheaper in definitely a bonus) But I don't know... it just doesn't have all the crap we have up here: millions of buildings, nothing to do, people walking around with there no-life 100k+ jobs, uptight rules, cocky Reston'ers... so I think it's cool LAMATB at least tries to go there every year. :P Norfolk is also getting a United Football League team! It's not the NFL but I'll add it on the list of things to do. Everything just seems more laid back and it has all the important places we have with an endless supply of fried chicken joints on top! XD

But yeah, we all need to live there someday. I know Dan and Andrew have talked about getting an apartment in Northern VA and I've always considered joining them, but I feel like the sea is calling me haha! Well I guess we can only see where life takes us. Until next time.
~Andy

Blown Up

Mannnn, I can't believe how quick stuff can turn around. I've been hit with so much sad news lately it blows. My friends at Old Navy are all leaving and it's making it harder for me to want to come back... but the funny thing is almost all of them found a new job in the same mall. Yankee Candle, Crazy 8, Abicrombie & Fitch, and Finish Line. Crazy right? Maybe I should try and get another job at the mall cause I really like working there in general. It's the worst because although they treat me nice, they treat the last sane manager we have left like shit. He is one of the nicest dudes I know and he's way underpaid, like he barely makes more then me and does like 3 times the work. All the other managers can come and cut themselves whenever they like, but they don't let him do anything. I think they know everyone likes him and they're holding on his yearly review on purpose because I think they know he's about to cut himself for good.

Meanwhile, all of my friends back here and I all seem to be having trouble. In school, relationships, with each other, damn it's depressing. I feel like I know exactly what should happen but it's not going too. At first I was thinking I was going to go for what I want to happen. But maybe the world is supposed to balance it's self out so I'm just gonna let everyone get on with what they're doing. We need a damn vacation!
~Andy

Forgotten Words

Well my parents are out of town and Andrews still on the way home from dinner with his family so I'm bored enough to write another post this summer! Honestly though, this summer has been a lot more of a blast then I thought it would be. I think I said that last summer too, but I think I like this summer even more. So much has gone on:

-Everything's legit back at Old Navy and I got a raise!
-Ticket To Ride has kept the bored game train alive (lol)
-Andrews gotten a few of us back into Guild Wars and I got 2 new expansions for 10 bucks, we also play Lost Planet 2
-Lori got me into a $5 DS game called Elebits and brought Monkey Majik back onto the scene (although my favorite song to sing along with of all the songs she's showed me is this one.)
-Jessica visited me at Herndon and we went all around town and into DC
-Nintendo's E3 has prepared me to put aside 300 bucks (hah, sorry beach trip)
-We tried the new Chic-fel-a spicy chicken sandwich... and I wouldn't get it again... too hot xD

And that's all I can remember for now. But the reason this post is called "Forgotten Words" is because sometime back in July 2009, I decided to attempt to rap a song. I found all the lyrics I wrote and after reading them I'm glad I didn't go through with it. Maybe I should just stick to another singing project this summer! Anyways before I put up my uhh... EMBARRASSING lyrics, let me tell you a little about the song. The beat is from a song called "Wanna get to know ya" by G-Unit and has it's own built in chorus that says "I wanna be your lover, etc ,etc." So I made 3 verses into the 3 scenarios of trying to get to know you: me at school, me out of school, and me at a frat party. Enjoy, but try hard not to laugh at me ok? XD And here's the beat. (Sorry theres no cuts like in facebook so this is a really long post)
~Andy

Wanna Get to know you
[School Andy]:(0:23)
Damn girl, you lookin mighty fine
hopefully in a few weeks I can make you mine
rumours flyin, everybody knows who I am
good or bad i hope you only listen to my friends or fam
give me a chance
I'll prove to you I aint no joke
wont choak work hard in school to show I aint broke
i try to be funny to keep you awake in class
now im lookin at that ass still hopin imma pass
I haven't got a chance but i hope im worth a second look just like all those textbooks
Stop worryin about my past i'll promise it aint true enough to make it last
I'm in the chorus so I'll sing you a love song,
hopin sleepless nights will stay away and don't last long,
make me yours and I promise it wont go wrong
as we're walkin down the isle to that graduation song.

[Casual Andy]:(1:32)
I feel like I live a crazy life
i feel like this girl could almost even be my wife
she not feelin my van
but if she wait around then my convertible will certainly be part of the plan
I like
video games and chillin no fib
gunz and watchin football games back at the crib
if she wanna night out she'll get first dibbs
and learn more about the redskins then former coach gibbs
I'll show her
more of my cities then she sees in one flight
pay for her meal before her first bite
show her my friends and have fun that never ends
and if i ask her on a date she'll say "yes" not "it depends"
if I get em then they follow my lead
go on long walks and give em all that they need
girl i'll keep you comin back, thats a fact


[Party Andy]:(2:40)
Girl I saw you at this douchebags party
and I'm sorry that there aint no bicardi
cheap beer around us and the mood aint right
But I know girls just like assholes aint that right?
But girl i'm that diamond in the rough (pssh)
don't let it fool you when you boyfriend tries to act tough
you think guys with muscles got it all but I'll show you how to ball and I wont let you fall
I wont do you wrong and beat your man at beer pong as the night is gettin on
say im a fool just for showin up
but i know ya boyfriend wont sink that cup
I'm gettin drunk and you know that I want you
you say im wack but soon you'll know that you want to
you think ya man is all that just cause hes in a frat
say I ain't your type but girl you'll start believein in the hype.

The Return

I can't believe it... I'm back in Herndon. I've abandoned this blog for so long but I'm going to write in it again anyway. I always usually come back dreading the summer because I always have such a good time at college and I do not want to work. I'm gonna miss(some of these only happened a few times but it sounds badass in a list)the girlfriend, the football games, the drinking, my college buddies, the Poker, the sex, the video games, and the good grades. Hell, I even miss my classes a little bit. The things I wont miss are: my formspring account, constantly smelling my friends cigarette smoke, and my biology class. But I am gonna try and be really optimistic about this summer. I got my job back, we got the annual VA beach trip in August, and Jessica is even gonna visit Herndon for the first time. I'm trying to go all out this summer so you guys better make it happen! (kidding) It will be interesting to see if anyone's changed. I can't wait to see all my friends up in Herndon for a while and I can't wait to go back!

Back from the Dead

I'm bring my blog back from the dead and I'm feeling on top of the world! Well, I say I'm bringing it back, but I'll probably just forget about it again until something really interesting happens or if I'm not lazy to type something so long. Anyways, things have been great. I got everything I wanted for Christmas and had fun ringing in the new years with my friends. I'm so pressed on the Nintendo DSi I got I can't even tell you.

Mostly though, I've just been working, sleeping, and playing DS. Which is fine with me. I find college is more fun when you have a lot of money so that's basically my primary objective when I come back for Christmas break. I've gotten so many new friends lately, and I also seem to be doing a good job at turning off girls that like me. Which is fine because I already have a great one. And I guess I've always had this "if you don't like me - forget you", philosophy about life. But I can't wait to go back because Jessica got me Mario Party DS AND Super Mario 64 DS for Christmas! So excited to play those, and it should go nicely with the GTA: Chinatown Wars and Mario Kart DS I already have. So in return I got her a really nice purse/handbag that I can't wait to show her.

I hope everyone had a great new years and I'm sorry that my life has continued to get more boring and real adult as I get older(aside from playing on a handheld for kids). But I promise to keep this up more, even if all I ever do is go to class or go to work. :P Catch you on the flip side,
~Andy

Fast Forward

Damn, so much has been going on lately. It's hard to keep up!

First off, I need to get my tires fixed if I'm trying to come up in a few weekends. I'll be in Herndon the 13th-15th to see a football game on Sunday, then I'll be back again the Wednesday after that for Thanksgiving.

School has been good, I got my progress report grades and I have A's in 4 of my classes but... something else in my math class. xD

I won the schools homecoming Poker tournament which was so much fun. After like 70people, 3 hours, and 100+ hands, I finally won! I got a bunch stuff: A ODU water bottle, an ODU umbrella, a ODU football tshirt, a ODU homecoming tshirt, 2 free tickets to the homecoming concert, a poker set, and a black table and chairs.

I went to the doctors with a painful spot on my chest. Turns out I had a Cyst, but with the medicine it mostly went away so it looks like I won't have to cut it off.

Jessica and I went to the Zoo today and we got an awesome close view of the Lion. I wish she could come with me to the homecoming concert tomorrow night but shes working. :/ I'm sure it will be fun with my friend Jen but it's not the same!

I like Twitter a lot. It's also gotten me into Facebook again a little bit too. I really like the fact that just the legit people have Twitter.

Finally, if you haven't already heard, the monopoly game was a total fail. I never want to try it again, and to be honest, the Jewishness(no offence j9) of the Monopoly game + the ridiculous late night menu have disgusted me with McDonalds. $1 Double Cheeseburger at BK you officially win! I seriously can't wait to be free the awful meal plan at ODU next year, where everything closes at 8, so I can start getting my own stuff and eating healthy. xD

Missing Link

Ahh so my 21st bday weekend is over. It wasn't as nearly as exciting as I expected, but I'm quite fine with that. My roommates older brother had some friends visit, and I was supposed to go to the bar with them, but I ditched to just hang with my friends. I actually don't really have a desire to go. All in all though, buying alcohol for the first time was extremely gratifying and I had a lot of fun.

My van is done again by the way. After singing at Andrews house, I packed up my things and left, only to have my front right tire blow out an hour away from the school. Then, to make things worse, my roommate had to drive and hour out and help me fix it because my jack was broken. He slowly escorted me on the flat tire back to ODU. After like 20minutes of going 60mph on the spare, it felt like it could break down any minute so it was really scary... but I made it back ok. The Van's just chillin in the parking lot for now.

Finally... am I on the outs with some of the Crew? I mean I don't have a link with all you guys because I don't have a PS3 but I thought we were still cool. But then again I feel like I haven't spoken to Dan or Lori in months, and I don't know if its ok to call them or hit them up on facebook anymore because its been so long. Maybe I did something? But either way I was just really sad when I didn't even get a happy birthday from Dan Lori Kit or Joe. :(

Twenty-one

Wow... I'm going to be 21 in less then a week. Finally I will be magically mature and won't have to deal with the po-lease! It makes me feel really old though. I'm excited to check out the bar scene, but I don't think I'd like it that much and it's probably better that I don't. xD
I really don't think being 21 will change much for me as lame as that sounds. But woooo 21! Lol.

Me and 2 of my friends are also trying something crazy. We want to get mcdonalds a bunch of nights a week and collect the monopoly pieces! You can also play online by entering the codes on the pieces, each one giving you a roll on the board to try and collect a monopoly there too. Were basically riding on winning at least 200 bucks to get back what we spent. Hopefully it will pay off! The 3 of us have collected just over 30 pieces in the last 3 days.

Monopoly and I'm gonna be 21? I think it's time to be a highroller again.

Long Time Coming

Wow my blog. Haha it probably thought I wasn't coming back! I feel really bad because I had so many stories I wanted to share including how awesome working at Old Navy was, and my move in at ODU but they are out of my head now. I hope everyone is having fun at college! I was worried when I first got here because it hit me that it might not be as awesome as I was building it up to be over the summer, but it has been awesome. I'm really excited for some of you guys coming down to ODU so I can show how we do it around here!

My van is dead for right now, which sucks. The battery has been wack and I've had to jump start it 4 times this week! But I drove to Jessica's last night and it died and wouldn't even jump start so she had to drive me back and the van is just chillin dead at her place.

I am almost 100% done with facebook. I look at it a lot but I'm just way to lazy to write people back and keep up with peoples birthdays and stuff. I might try a test where I get rid of my wall completely so not to many people will write me and if they do it will have to be by private message. And although I hate to say it I might test out twitter as well. Its starting to look like facebook without the hassle!

Finally, I love my new phone. I'm not very materialistic but for some reason I always need a ballin cell phone. I do whatever I can to use it cause its sweet just looking at it, and Jessica surprised me with a 8GB mini SD card for it and so it has completely replaced my ipod since then so I'm back to being apple product free! :)
The camera is also awesome and I snapped a picture of my van at exactly 150000 miles. I'll have to add it later though because I actually typed this whole blog post with my phone while waiting outside of my 2 o' clock class.

Anyways, I'm sorry I have been extremely lacking with my online activity but I miss all you guys a lot and I hope you're having a great time now that we're back!
~Andy

Summer... Hobbies?

Overall, I'd say the summer has turned out to be pretty legit this year. Still, I am excited that I only have a month to go starting today for ODU! I think its been more legit cause its been more relaxing. I kinda stopped hanging out with all my friends in Herndon aside from my main group and occasionally visiting nearby college friends. I have less work hours but I'm still making enough money to last me all of college. The problem at first was now I have a lot of free time on my hands but the crew has held it down very well. I'm really glad we're going through this boredgame hobby phase because it is a lot of fun and I really feel like I'm doing something interesting and making good use of my time.

Coming soon in just a little over 2 weeks... the NFL season returns! I know most of you guys could care less but life just feels so empty when there aren't games every Sunday. That and GunZ will help fill some more voids lol.

Finally though, my dad is going to let me use this software that we used to record a song together a while ago(i think I posted it) when he gets back from Florida in a few days. So, I've also been writing lyrics for fun. It has a lot of things that audacity doesn't, many of them more practical and simple for novice users like me. However, the main one I am trying to finish, which I think I talked about in a car with a few of you once, is a rap song. It will probably be my first and last attempt at doing it but it had to be done for the lulz. I went with a simple beat that has its own chorus, and I'm done with 2/3 of the verses(which I wrote myself). Assuming that I can even sound so-so, I'm really excited for you guys to hear it. Here's the beat I'm gonna use.

Haha here's to hobbies.

~Andy

Summer Sins

Geez I haven't posted in this since May. I feel like if I posted something now no one would even notice! But basically my summer has been..... uneventful. Hence no posting. Searching for a job was the most annoying thing in the world and lately I've been noticing more things that annoy me. So here they are really quick:

1. Discrediting someones story; ex) when someones telling a story and someone else goes "no that never happened" or "you never did that!" or "yeah right!" or even "what?" Just seems kinda rude to me.

2. When people tell instead of ask; ex) "Come to my house after school" as apposed to "do you want to come to my house after school?"

3. Lectures; ex) being lectured on your bad habits or about why you should do something

It hasn't been happening to me directly really but I know it bothers me, especially when my friends do it to other friends. And you know your summers uneventful when you make a list of dumb crap like this. That's kinda why I titled this "Summer Sins": I was hoping to do something crazy. My parents were gone for a week so that was nice but I'm looking for something different then a carefree evening. Something different that know one would see coming or no one would have to know about crazy. Because, looking ahead, the only eventful thing left this summer is the VA Beach trip... so I'd rather just want to fast forward through work and get back to college! But until then, who knows, maybe just try to sin it up a little. Or maybe not. Whatever. ;D

Weight Loss

My mom has been really frustrating me lately. I went to the doctors for a regular checkup the other day, and I mentioned to my mom that the doctors suggested I watch my weight. The last time I got a checkup was two years ago, and I was 163lbs then. Now I'm 144 pounds, which doesn't make sense because I've been eating more and exercising less since I've been home.

I don't feel or seem to look any different, and I certainly dont believe it. Yeah I'm 144 right now, but what would I look like with 19 extra pounds? I feel like that's a lot. Now my mom is forcing me to eat fattier foods and more often, making me check my weight all the time, and wants me to get blood tests, etc, if my weight doesn't go up. First of all I think shes freaking out over nothing, and second of all I don't want to put on weight or know if I can. I just have a really high metabolism! 

I like where I am and I'm already feeling really sluggish from eating Popcorn Chicken all the time and sitting around playing Guild Wars with the crew. I just can't imagine eating more(considering I already eat a lot) and I wish mom would just drop it; I mean my brother looks like more of a stick insect then I do. I don't feel sick at all and I wish she would stop saying that I could have a bunch of things wrong with me. So I don't know what to do now: either put on the weight so she will drop it and then go back to normal, or tell her I'm not going to the doctor and have her mad and on me about it all the time?

~Andy

Surprise Job

Well I'm back in Herndon. I must say I'm surprised at how fast I settled back in. Missing college, I thought I would be restless. But I'm just chillin. Well... not exactly. My mom and I went everywhere yesterday just applying for jobs and applying for jobs online. Some of these applications (especially the online ones) are absolutely crazy! One I did on a computer at the Home Depot asked me to alphabetize a bunch of stuff. And THEN you get the ones that have like 20 pages of questions with multiple questions on each page asking you to pick things from "Strongly agree" to "strongly disagree". Some of the questions were so wack and out of control almost to the point of ridiculousness. Its like... you know I'm just trying to be a fucking cashier right!?! But somehow they make it rocket science. :P

I was surprised how many jobs we hit though. If we get nothing back, my mom and I will try RTC and the mall next. Another weird thing about the jobs I applied for is that like 3/4's of them require drug tests to join if accepted. I don't have anything to worry about, but somehow that just seems like a really weird/awkward invasion of my privacy. Like walking into Home Depot so I can pee in a cup lol... just seems wack to me. It also seems pointless. Who in there right mind is just gonna roll into work on crack? lmao but I guess you do get weirdos.  

Other things of note: One of the managers at Bed Bath and Beyond looked like a total molester of some sort so I'm glad he told me they hadn't hired someone in the last 3 months(isn't that crazy? not good if its like that everywhere!). The other is that some dude that worked at home depot asked my mom "who she was" to me because he and a few other employees thought she was my hot girlfriend. LOL. Hopefully you guys have more luck with your summer job finding!

~Andy 

Summer and Social Fail

Damn I don't believe summer is just weeks away. I for one am not ready at all. I just want to chill. Summer in high school was great; I didn't have to worry about anything! Now summers are filled with so much crap and responsibility. Work, having no license, people who try to make you look like an imbecile then pretend it's nothing, missing college friends, and it just seems more hectic. I'm going to miss college so much just because our group of friends got so close and we never had to worry about drama or anything and fun was daily. I definitely don't want to work either. Jessica met my parents today and they loved her so it sucks that were gonna split for the summer too. Don't get me wrong I love the people I have in Northern VA like Dan, Matt, J9, and the others... but I wish they were at college with me instead. :P Hopefully despite work and other responsibilities we can still make this the most ballin summer ever.

Also, I feel so behind now. I used to be extremely good at being social and had a lot of friends and such... I even felt like I was kinda ahead of my time. But now that facebook is here and I don't hardly use it at all... I'm actually way behind my time. I can't keep up with anyone and when I actually do decide to comment on something Andrew has probably already beaten me to it. I can't get into these blogs my close friends are making and being raved about and I'm so far behind with Sean and Lori and the others it's not even funny. That's one good thing about the summer though because I really really can't wait to see them face to face. But for now I fail. :P

Hopefully I'm wrong about my bad view of the summer!

~Andy

Insomnia

I was up with my friends and decided to drink one of those NoS energy drinks tonight at midnight. I wasn't playing attention and drunk the whole 3 servings of it. I have so much to do tomorrow and tonight has been one of the worst nights of my life. I had a great weekend but I've been trying to sleep for the last 3.5hours with no luck. I'm yawning and want to sleep but there is just so much caffeine that I can't. I'm praying that I can survive this day and I will never ever do this again :(

Weekend Social

Last weekend, my brother finally got the chance to come down and visit me at ODU. We had a lot of fun and he really liked my friends. Haha I think I've convinced him to come here after a year or two at NoVA. 

Ugh, I also haven't really been using facebook at all lately. I look at it a lot but never use it or write back to people. It has offically overloaded for me. It just makes me mad that I thought that being social was a skill that I had; now it's easy to be that social because of facebook and I feel now that I'm not using it I'm just falling behind. Its been the same for LAMATB too. I look at it all the time but never feel the need to post unless someone is calling me out. I kinda respect the fact that Andrew can use facebook all the time and really well, unlike my roommate who will be on facebook for hours doing quizzes, finding bumper stickers, and picking his top 5 anything. I just can't do either. I just refresh my page hoping for something to happen and then when it does I don't usually do anything about it.

Ahh well. I could always try twitter and just live though status updates. Anyone know if that's worth it? 

Random Event

Whew, I finally got through my first day of community service. I'm working with a young lady named Kim. Shes really cool, and we spent most of the day talking about her job. They pay her to just come up with a bunch of creative programs that help kids learn about drinking and diseases. But unfortunately she can only find me 4 hours a week so it's gonna take a while. :[ 

I have a story! I was late to class on Monday and if I wanted to barely make it on time I had to walk really fast without stopping. So I was walking by the baseball field and saw this girl that lives in Powhatan that I've had my eye on. She starts waving at me, so really surprised I waved back. But then I was embarrassed because two girls were behind me and I thought she could be waving to them. But then as I walk forward she kinda comes out from behind a car and says "Hey sorry, I don't really know who you are, I was just waving to you randomly." I was in a hurry so I said the usual "haha It's all good yeah." Then I walked on. She then walked by those 2 other girls without saying anything. After class, I told a few of my buddies about it at Dinner and one of them, Rob, actually knew who she was. After dinner we were standing outside of my apartment when Rob said "Hey." I turned around but had to do a double take. It was the same girl, except she had on a completely different outfit then she did 1hr 30mins ago. 

I just thought that was kinda weird, and it sucks that I had to rush to class and didn't get a chance to talk to her. I also ran into a janitor today who told me I had some "doo-doo" on my shirt. I looked and didn't see so he starting pointing around, so I said "where?" and took my sweater off. "I was talking about your Redskins Jersey." he said, and a few of the other janitors laughed. They got me good. :P

~Andy 

Service.

Haha my weekend was a ton of fun. My roommates brother came down and we partied with the crew. I hadn't played pong in ages and my roommate and I went 5 wins 3 losses last night. 

Fun aside, I finally met with the Community Service lady. I have to work early mornings Monday and Thursday for our student health center. Apparently I'll be typing stuff she needs to have typed, making posters, put up flyers around the school, etc. Hopefully I wont have to make too many posters though, because my artistic talent is very very limited. :P

My only problem lately is that my Dad is a little short on cash and so I had to throw down 250 of my own money for a housing deposit for next year. On top of that I don't think he'll be able to pay me the 250 he said he would for the Wii... which means I practially gave it away now. So I'm kinda pissed about that, but hopefully my dad can figure it all out. 

I feel like I'm kinda at a turning point in my life right now and it's kinda exciting. Although I'm still doing the same old, my grades are better and a lot of things in college still feel fun and new. Gary R. sent me an Inbox message on facebook wanting to be friends again, and I donno I'm kinda indifferent about it. Still haven't written him back yet. Haha at least he hasn't tried to make me look like an idiot though.

~Andy 

The Brakeup.

Ahh so it's over for Anna and I again. It stemmed from a ton of things, and while it wasn't a bad brake up I'm still a little sad we couldn't work things out. My alcohol charge and not willing to stop hanging out with certain "trouble makers" killed a lot of the Romance we used to have. She admitted to acting like a 35 year old and that she was used to living a certain upper-middle class lifestyle and I guess that just didn't mix well with how I am. 

I'm writing this post about her because I'm almost certain she has written one about me. I just hope she's not talking trash about me. But after we brokeup I joined Lori as one of the people to be kicked off her now friends only LiveJournal. I mean we still want to be friends, but that's like the main way we communited when we weren't going out so it's a little dissapointing. I also wish I could have gotten Anna into the webcam, because I really think that could have helped save our relationship. But the romance wasn't all that was gone I guess. We never really ever talked about the physical side of our relationship, some of my "friends" would tell her things they thought about me like being two-faced, and neither of us just quite had the effort to put into a long distance relationship. So the relationship was kinda always just at one level.

I still kinda have Jessica there for me so I'm sure that this must have been harder for Anna then me. Or maybe it didn't really bother her at all... I don't know. But I guess I'll start to move on even if we end up staying in touch or not. I don't even know how she feels right now. But yeah, I just wanted to say something in my blog about all this.

~Andy