The Brakeup.

Ahh so it's over for Anna and I again. It stemmed from a ton of things, and while it wasn't a bad brake up I'm still a little sad we couldn't work things out. My alcohol charge and not willing to stop hanging out with certain "trouble makers" killed a lot of the Romance we used to have. She admitted to acting like a 35 year old and that she was used to living a certain upper-middle class lifestyle and I guess that just didn't mix well with how I am. 

I'm writing this post about her because I'm almost certain she has written one about me. I just hope she's not talking trash about me. But after we brokeup I joined Lori as one of the people to be kicked off her now friends only LiveJournal. I mean we still want to be friends, but that's like the main way we communited when we weren't going out so it's a little dissapointing. I also wish I could have gotten Anna into the webcam, because I really think that could have helped save our relationship. But the romance wasn't all that was gone I guess. We never really ever talked about the physical side of our relationship, some of my "friends" would tell her things they thought about me like being two-faced, and neither of us just quite had the effort to put into a long distance relationship. So the relationship was kinda always just at one level.

I still kinda have Jessica there for me so I'm sure that this must have been harder for Anna then me. Or maybe it didn't really bother her at all... I don't know. But I guess I'll start to move on even if we end up staying in touch or not. I don't even know how she feels right now. But yeah, I just wanted to say something in my blog about all this.

~Andy   

Times Are Changein

Man, spring brake has actually been really good. I don't feel like doing much typing so I'm just gonna do a "bullet" post of everything I've done.

-I've had about 4 different people come pick me up from my house so far. Thanks for helping. :]
-I got to catch up with 2 friends, one who I hadn't seen in over 3 months, the other 3 years!
-I've had Popcorn Chicken 3 times since I've been back, and I'm trying to make it 5.
-I told a lie to a friend the other day to see if they would say anything about it.
-I got an 88 on my paper that I turned in right before spring brake!
-I'm making a list of issues.
-I went to my Highschool Chorus concert and it was really nice to see everyone.
-My brother and I picked up a job aplication at Bed, Bath, and Beyond.
-My brother might be moveing back into the house soon after 5months of being gone.
-I think monday was the last day I was actually home for dinner, but I might be tonight.
-I saw a chick flick and liked it.
-My mom is going to attempt to trim my hair down just a little today.
-I played at least 4 different board games last night.
-I saw my P.O. on Monday.
-I got the new version of MSN messenger and it's... eh.
-My car is all salty and dirty from the snow. Even though I can't drive it I have to wash it. :/
-I only have 3 days left before I'm back at ODU.

I hope everyone elses Spring Brake list is full and interesting too. Or, that it will be if yours is next week!

Dreamin On

I decided to update my blog yesterday because of the snow day... but then never got around to it. I guess I'll do it now! Yesterday was crazy. I stayed up till 4am writing a paper. I just kept getting sidetracked from my paper waiting for the snow to start assuming there would be a snow day. I tried to shower at midnight, but that didn't help motivate me either. So it was just a looong slooow writing process. Then I finally got it done at like 3:30am... and it starts snowing.
But I guess that's how it works. XD

But the main thing I wanted to talk about is a really weird dream I had. I don't have them that often, and I have been trying to figure out if they have a hidden meaning or if they're just mind garbage. I don't remember some of it, and it jumps around a lot randomly, but here goes:

Its started out that I went to a HHS chorus reunion. I walked into the room, only arriving with a few people from the class of 06. The room was kinda dark, it had a stage of risers, a red curtain, black walls, tables, and a wooden floor. When I walked in though, all the people that were on stage were from Madrigals (it turn out to be the group we had the year I graduated, and they were all in there outfits) and I overheard two of them talking about me when I walked in, saying things like "Oh, shit it's Andy" "Ohh, what has he been up too." But then all of a sudden I was somewhere else. I was in an all white room with one tall white table and one tall stool. There were a lot of people in there, but I didn't recognize any of them. However, Anna was there, chatting to a few of the mystery people as if she knew them. Then when I sat on the stool, she asked to sit, but I refused, so she sat on me. <_<
Then, one of the mystery people called me over. It was a black girl, and she asked me if I knew any of "these people" claiming that I had some issues with them. She showed me a few pictures, and they were actually people I knew! But they were the most random far-fetched acquaintances that I hadn't talked to in years. Then, before I could answer, Anna and I started dancing in front of everyone for about 5 seconds to no music. Then we just stopped. After a few seconds of complete silence I just walked out of the room....
and then woke up. Isn't that the weirdest dream ever?!?!? The more I re-read it, the more I'm convinced that dreams are just random brain garbage/info that gets all jumbled up. :P

And other thing, what do you guys think about 11:11? I didn't believe it and strictly didn't do it at first... but now I'm kind of a big believer. I guess I've just feel like I've had a lot to wish for... or more so the feeling to need to wish for. I wish for a ton of stuff, from doing good in school, to hoping my relationship goes in the direction I want it to, to winning future events, and for certain weather, etc. I was just wondering if anyone else was into 11:11, and what kinda stuff they wished for.

Finally, I don't believe Teddie turned out to be a dude after being hollow inside for so long! That makes him a lot less cool. But it's ok... I still think you're awesome Teddie.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WumXo0lPAE

Anyways, bye for now!
~Andy

Yep...

Sigh... I don't know whats up with me right now. I'm in one of those moods where I feel like I have a lot of problems right now, but maybe I actually do.

I went to court and have to do community service and a 1 day for hour class to get in off my record, then on top of that I have a 6 month licence suspension and I have to visit a Parole Officer once a month.

So now, I don't have a car at ODU. And I went to the 2nd floor of our main building to find community service, but they wouldn't give it to me. Apparently, they only want people who want to do community service, not those that have too. So fuck them, that's so dumb. They redirected me to a lady at Judicial Affairs which deals with people like me trying to find community service. But... shes out today so I have to wait till tomorrow.

Jessica wrote on her blog the other day about music and how listening to it was a big part of her life. It reminded me of how it used to be a big part of mine. I definitely want to see if I still have it, and looking back at old music I used to sing. I'm kinda upset I haven't kept up with that either.

But there are other problems stirring in my head that I don't really know how to handle or bring up. But I will eventually for the good of anyone involved of course. I guess I just didn't have what I thought, and everything seems to be getting me down. Ahh well, here's hoping for a better tomorrow! Looks like its time for my first visit to fmylife.com. Sike!!

Whats good, Yo?

Sweet and Simple, here are some stories about what I have been up too lately:

The other day our apartment complex had a fire drill. They were going through all the rooms because if you didn't leave during the fire drill you got fined. However, when we got back to our room one of the RA's pulled David and I aside with our other roommate. (We have 4 people total, our other roommate is just never there) They put us in a room and closed the door so we got really worried. But all they said was that they found an illegal knife(because it was too big) belonging to our roommate, and that our apartment is too messy. They said they were going to give us 24 hours to remove the knife and clean our place. 90% of the mess was our roommates, and he had to get a friend to help him clean because he had so much crap everywhere. David and I didn't have much to do but we said screw it! And gave the apartment a whole new clean over. Vacuumed the floors, cleaned the bathrooms, threw out all the trash, dusted our desks, etc. But they never showed up to check our room.

I've been going through major Persona 4 withdrawals. I accidentally left my PS2 at home before I came back and I really really want to play. I like the music also and the game comes with the soundtrack! But I left that at home too. Luckily a few of the good ones are on YouTube.

I went to a "Sex & Sundaes" event for our school, where if you answered questions about safe sex, you get a free sundae. Our school has been doing events like this all week for Valentines Day. However, when I took some free condoms there like the other guys to make it look like I actually had some use for them, I saw a handout that was really funny. It was titled "101 ways to make love without doing it" and included things like "Go to the library", "Find out what makes each other sad", "touch each other in a special way", and "Give each other pet names". I wish I could put the whole list on here, because most of them were quite hilarious. And as if that wasn't enough, one of the tables had two wooden penises that you could take off and put on condoms. I stayed clear from that table. xD

We're not allowed to have candles in our apartment, but I've been lighting one in here anyways. It makes the room feel 10x more chill. You should try it! It's weird but it makes a really nice difference.

My roommate and I went to that food panel thing and told them what food we wanted, but it seemed like they were most interested in how to make people go to the cafe more and they asked us what kinda stuff we wanted to see in the cafe(like TV's or something). We stressed to them that if they really wanted us to go more, that they had to stay open later then 8pm. That is the most ridiculous food campus closing hour I've ever seen at any college. I hope they listened.
~Andy

Food Panel

I registered my roommate and I for an RSVP discussion group in which we talk about what kind of food we want to see at the cafeteria next to us next year. I signed up for this because A) the food we have now kinda sucks and B) I figured people who want to see healthier foods would be the only ones interested in signing up. I'm going there to counter them and bring the good stuff back!

Here's what I'm thinking of what they've served so far:
Pros:
-Chicken Nuggets
-Cheeseburgers
-Cobblers/Pies
-Fried Chicken
-Tater Tots
-Turkey/Mashed Potatoes
-Roast Beef/Corn
-Pizza
-Sandwich/Taco Bar
-Ice Cream Bar
Cons:
-Breakfast for dinner
-Cafeteria Ribs
-Fish
-Usually undercooked fries
-Meatloaf
-Random foods that look fancy and add diversity but taste like crap
-Salads
-Healthy/Vegetarian Crap
-Scrambled Eggs with Cheese/Grits
-Grilled Cheese

Haha and on top of the Pros, I'd like to see them add "Popcorn Chicken" to that category next year. Anything you guys think needs to be added to the lists?

Whats Real?

Since I am really into blog's at all that type of stuff, I enjoy finding and reading others as well. But usually, I never find anyone who talks about something besides events that happen during their day or Quizzes. One friend that does write about things beside the normal wrote a Note on Facebook that simply said: So am I lame for writing these? Or am I real for being me?

I think he's real. When you write blog posts about emotion or other things that mean a lot to you, you find a lot of fakers. Because pretty much everyone understands or knows what you mean, but not a lot of people will admit to that. They say stuff like "why would he put that on the internet?" Like there's some kind of society normal as to what you can put on the Internet, when really, it's completely the opposite. (See YouTube, Porn) I say respect others opinions and don't pretend shit isn't real. I'm interested, what do you guys think about people who post blogs on a personal level? Would you ever write one?

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-Dr.Suess